Madison used to ask me when I would have a baby, I would tell her when she was old enough to babysit. I was sure one day the Buckleys would get back at me for teaching their boys to put a bin over their head and run into a wall, or when I got the twins a water sprayer and told them to put it in their bathroom, or get back at me for when I started a Cheerio fight with the kids at the twin's first birthday. The idea that my children will never know Ben upsets me beyond words. Knowing Cristin and Jeff are fighting for the health and safety of other children gives my children one more hero in the family to look up to and learn from. This thought makes me smile!